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Monday, June 21, 2010

Treat others like how you want others to treat you

OR

Treat others like how they had treated you?

I would choose both. But more towards choice 2.
There is a limit to choice 1.
Sometimes, when you treat people nicely, taking that extra bit of effort to be good.
They don't necessarily take it to heart, in fact they took in for granted.
They think that it is just normal, they do not treat you the way you treated them.
They don't feel anything at all because they simply have TOO MANY amazing people in their life.
So much so that they don't remember you.
Instead, they got influence by their surroundings.
They got affected by rumours, they got affected by lies, and in the end?
They treat you like another complete stranger and weird, it seems just like avoiding you without you noticing.
There were less communication between you and them, the friendship is not as close as before.
There are just this natural awkward feeling you'll feel when you're with the person.
A feeling that close friend will definitely not have it, at all.
Reason is - they were afraid of their friends talking back behind them.
This, is the only way to prevent misunderstanding.
They treated you badly in one way or another, it just suck so much you wish you can kill them.
They do things that disappoint you. They said words with nails piercing through your heart.
The worse thing of all? They don't realise what they did in the end.
They don't feel a sense of guilt.
I wonder what is their heart made of. Perhaps plastic.
A few days later, they pretended nothing happened and TRIED TO BE NICE to you.
They continue the daily jokes, they continue to be humorous, making you at least laugh a little
They forgotten what they had did, their actions, their words, their behaviour.
So I have told myself to treat them back badly too.
They don't deserve to be my friends, no wait they don't even exist in my world.
They don't deserve for me to be nice to them(I have been like this for the past few years)
It is just like serving myself to get bullied, get laughed, get insulted.
I decided I should stand up for myself. Come on. It is not that difficult.
I have dignity. I shouldn't let people like this affect me, I have a life of my own. Thank you.
Although in my religion, it had taught me to treat people normally.
ONE DAY THEY WILL KNOW YOUR EFFORT AND TREAT YOU BACK NICELY.
Regardless if what they did to you, because god will punish one's action.
It is a karma, a cycle. And if you do the same back to them, you'll get punish too.
But I find it pointless to actually punish their soul when they go to hell,
in which what they did is affecting the other party in real life LIKE NOW.
Or maybe when they got punish alive, it is FAR TOO LATE.
So late that either you yourself doesn't even exist, or it is the end of the world.
In drama, usually the ending is maybe they got cancer and die and that's it?
By making a person fall sick and leave the world is not enough to compensate what they had did to a person.
Physically,emotionally,mentally.
And you know what? The one who had always been treated unfairly will pity the bad ones when they fall ill.
This is the point when they ask for forgiveness, and the other party will say : " Its okay. I never blame you"
Everything is then solved. -.-'''

I can't be accepting them and keeping quiet and continue to let everything worsens.
I can't be putting every fake smile and trying to let the moment fly pass.
Pretending that : '' oh, it's okay. I am fine. '' and walk away.
Because that just makes me more stupid and stubborn.
It is the same concept as a girl JUST ONLY LOVE THAT ONE GUY,
which the guy continue to flirt and have sex with other girls.
I should have wake up, be smart and awake of the people around me.
FML.
Someone who can be easily used(when you need me) and dump aside(when you think i'm useless)
Someone who you can simply raise your voice at when you don't even dare to do so with the rest.
Someone which will be easily forgotten, neglected.
This is enough. Everything should end at this point of time.

This one month break was just a period of time when I really reflect about my own life.
How to change and improve on it. My dreams, my goals, what I want.
I will strive towards it.
I hope 10years later when I read this article, I will be a _______.
I will open a _________ and franchise ___________ to Singapore.
Oh wait, just make sure I survive after 2012. Hopefully.
If anyone can fill in the blanks I swear you know me extremely well.
:)

PS : I am jealous of you. Yes, you!! why why why.
Also, publishing this entry doesn't mean I am seeking revenge or what lah!!
I am still a very friendly person and the Jiahao you guys know. :D
Just having this random thought after returning from hat yai, abit emo and just want to blog my feelings out.

Jiahao,17yrs old.
Yuying Secondary.

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